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Jan. 1st, 2006 09:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
seiberwingFor about the hundredth time I'm going to attempt to reformat myself. Unfortunatly this does not mean a larger missile launcher and a new paint job, but includes such things as less time spent on the internet and sitting around in general (I'm thinking maybe an hour, 1.5 hours on weeknights) and not buying any but the most essential toys until I get a decent job to pay for them.
It's not exactly on account of New Years, but more having to do with the fact that my parents sat me down and said "This is where you've fucked up, this is where you need to get better." And "this" covered a longer list than I'd like to have.
Unfortunatly, I've been here many times before and the attempts to turn myself into something slightly neater, more useful, and more socially adept than a slime mold have usually ended before the first week. I don't want that to happen this time, so I am going to try my damndest to actually make this work. I've only got about four months to do it with because...well, I don't know if they'd actaully follow through, but there was mention of not sending me to college if I didn't shape up. Which quite honestly scares me.
Okay, you can all come out, angsting is over. In other news, tonight's the last night of Hannukah, meaning my last day toget more presents celebrate the joyous festival of lights and get my Hannukah-ficlet done. Happy Hannukah, y'all.
It's not exactly on account of New Years, but more having to do with the fact that my parents sat me down and said "This is where you've fucked up, this is where you need to get better." And "this" covered a longer list than I'd like to have.
Unfortunatly, I've been here many times before and the attempts to turn myself into something slightly neater, more useful, and more socially adept than a slime mold have usually ended before the first week. I don't want that to happen this time, so I am going to try my damndest to actually make this work. I've only got about four months to do it with because...well, I don't know if they'd actaully follow through, but there was mention of not sending me to college if I didn't shape up. Which quite honestly scares me.
Okay, you can all come out, angsting is over. In other news, tonight's the last night of Hannukah, meaning my last day to
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Date: 2006-01-01 10:04 pm (UTC)something slightly neater, more useful, and more socially adept than a slime mold
Neatness is a state of mind, usefulness is relative depending on who and how you're being useful, and the socially adept thing? If it makes you uncomfortable doing it, don't bloody do it no matter what other people think about it. This sounds uncomfortably like things I used to think when I was younger (and not so much younger) if that doesn't sound completely patronising, and it's honestly not worth trying so hard it makes you unhappy. Seriously, just do what you feel comfortable with and sod everyone else. *snuggles you*
As for the schoolwork, I've read through some of Flyby's essays for her before and I'm more than willing to help out if there's anything I can do. Let me know and I'll dive in head-first. Good luck, love. *hugs*
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Date: 2006-01-01 11:38 pm (UTC)It's honestly not worth trying so hard it makes you unhappy.
I'm unhappy because I haven't been trying things that I'm afraid will make me uncomfortable. I haven't been trying period, is the problem. I stopped caring and now I need to start caring again.
Good luck, love. *hugs*
*snuggles* Thanks. That means a lot.