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Nov. 15th, 2007 04:45 pmSeems that I've missed a day of my medications, something that was only brought to my attention recently (as of about 4:30pm) by my recent jittery nature and the quiet expulsion of 'fuck that shit' during a particularly unenlightening Men's Heath lecture on spirituality. More on that later when I'm not focused elsewhere, and no I did not get in trouble for it.
So, because this is my blog and I can do as I please with it, I'm charting the results.
My body is very jittery, and motor control is a little harder than it should be. *eyes vibrating foot* Try playing Halo while riding on one of those bucking cow machines, you'll get the idea. I'm having to focus a bit just to type, and my movements are being rapid and jerky. Heart rate's not really in a weird area but it feels like it is. Sort of a sugar rush effect, really.
I've got a mild headache and my head feels like it's all bound up in wet cotton batting, I can't focus on a specific image or thought trail without a bit of effort, it keeps jumping about. To be quite frank, I'm not quite sure I want to be focusing on a specific because if I get a really disturbing image in my head during one of these it becomes difficult to get it out again.
I'm not excessively emotional either way, although impulse control is a little lower than I'd like it to be and I'm rather sleepy. Might take a nap at some point, let the Lamictal I just took work its way back into my system. Mood is...well, I'll admit to having felt a little emotionally unstable back in class but the guy was a colossal bore and annoying besides. I did go up and talk to him about a lack of an inspiring presentation afterwards, and found it hard to voice my thoughts properly or make calm, stable gestures, and that was about when I figured out something was wrong. It didn't help that that part of the guest speaker's talk was that women discussed things while men solved them, and it was pretty damn obvious he was waiting for me or the other girl to get offended somehow because that meant he was right. Hopefully I explained my points properly (points being that he should have ordered and edited his talk better and focused on actual spirituality) instead of looking like a flailing moron.
I was actually considering a few days ago doing a small trial of going off my medications for a bit. Trial over. I'm gonna go fall over for a bit now.
So, because this is my blog and I can do as I please with it, I'm charting the results.
My body is very jittery, and motor control is a little harder than it should be. *eyes vibrating foot* Try playing Halo while riding on one of those bucking cow machines, you'll get the idea. I'm having to focus a bit just to type, and my movements are being rapid and jerky. Heart rate's not really in a weird area but it feels like it is. Sort of a sugar rush effect, really.
I've got a mild headache and my head feels like it's all bound up in wet cotton batting, I can't focus on a specific image or thought trail without a bit of effort, it keeps jumping about. To be quite frank, I'm not quite sure I want to be focusing on a specific because if I get a really disturbing image in my head during one of these it becomes difficult to get it out again.
I'm not excessively emotional either way, although impulse control is a little lower than I'd like it to be and I'm rather sleepy. Might take a nap at some point, let the Lamictal I just took work its way back into my system. Mood is...well, I'll admit to having felt a little emotionally unstable back in class but the guy was a colossal bore and annoying besides. I did go up and talk to him about a lack of an inspiring presentation afterwards, and found it hard to voice my thoughts properly or make calm, stable gestures, and that was about when I figured out something was wrong. It didn't help that that part of the guest speaker's talk was that women discussed things while men solved them, and it was pretty damn obvious he was waiting for me or the other girl to get offended somehow because that meant he was right. Hopefully I explained my points properly (points being that he should have ordered and edited his talk better and focused on actual spirituality) instead of looking like a flailing moron.
I was actually considering a few days ago doing a small trial of going off my medications for a bit. Trial over. I'm gonna go fall over for a bit now.
